Elaine, all along I just want to be your good boyfriend, someone whom you can find whenever you're in low spirits, whenever you need a shoulder to lean on. Seriously, I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I'm even willing to lay down my life just to exchange for a glimpse of hope, just for you to feel a little blessed to have me around with you. If I ever had to choose between you and one last breath, I will really use my last breath to tell you how much I love you and how I wish we will still be together hand in hand walking down the aisle of the church. I really want you to know I'm willing to give you everything, even my last.
Perhaps it's me, I'm too useless to give you a proper and wonderful love like what others can give their gf, a handsome and rich bf to be willing to give you truckloads of money to spend on, all I have is nothing but only a me. I want you to know, I really love you and it's not sweet talking because what for sweet talk if I'd never really meant it? Although sometimes I might be tying you down very tight that you can't even struggle, but that's basically all because I love you. I had given up alot of things for you, I really hope you can see these efforts I've done to prove to you how much you're actually worth in my heart. I know sometimes I shouldn't get jealous because you're talking to another guy, but you know, sometimes feeling jealous isn't what I want, it's because I'm afraid of losing you. I really love you more than what you know. I don't want you to get back to the past, I want you to feel contented with me around in your life, I want you to make the best out of everything, I want you to strive even harder for what you deserves.
Love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same. I really hope that you understand every part of the elements in my body that's going through torment, because I really love you. Every now and then, you will pop up into my mind. Even though I'd given up many things, 1 thing for sure is that I'll never give up on you. I really hope you would care a little more for my feelings, tell me you really mend your ways, answering me in a way which I'd expected. I'm not trying to be a nuisance here, but I really want you to know, in a relationship, both parties are suppose to give in to each other, and not one sided.
I love you, even more than myself.
I'm a boy who ONLY love myself.
